Im down ='(

This morning once i woke up i received ah be msg...he told me that he's goin 2 butterworth workng very soon...2nite only discuss this with me...my heart like thousand tonnes of rocks...im sank back to bed and very very sad....ah be if go there working mean we cant alwiz meet d...he will be staying there d...im sad....i cant live alone rite now...i jz cant..i noe that in this world no 1 cnt live without others...but right now i just cant...it's because of we just get bec 2 gtr not long ago...now not yet reli stable down....so it's just not the rite time to have any distances between us...

Last nite only ah be asked me whether i have write down how i felt anot about recently we almost stay 2gtr le...i like stay at his house d...evyday i go working and college...he go working...den at nite i stay at his house...we sleep 2gtr....very sweet...he said our relationship like uplevel d..but sudenly 2day he got meeting and need to go prai working very soon...im sad...im down...how?i dono what to do..

After woke up i watched movie with his mum...very nice the movie...quite funny...we both quite enjoy the movie...after that i start to feel dizzy..especialy when i sit on his bed i feel like the bed can turn around....and i feel like im goin to faint....dono why suddenly like this...

I whole day very down..i dowan bebe to go other place working...even he need to go i also hope that he can come bec evyday....donit 2 stay there....hmm.. ='(

Last nite we went to Shrlyn farewell....2nite just not a smooth nite 4 evybody....Jeff being punched by mickey again....thing are getting more complicated now as Jolyn n Ivan also said to be involved in this matter...hmm....after reached home me n ah be took few foto 2 gtr....then we cooked maggi mee...ah be cook nishiin noodle....ah be noe i love sausages...so he purposely put more 4 me...love u be...muackz...

23.09.2009

23rd of Sept...it just a normal 23rd...make no diff....nothing special...2day is jz we 2gtr 1 yr and half d...but i din expect anythng on 2day...bcz i noe that the more i expect the more disappointment i will get...so im cool with it now..i noe u 4gt d...but it's ok.....i jz realize that when we expect too much our life will bcm vy boring...cz there will be no surprises at all....hmm....i will just sit there n wait...wait n wait....see whether 23rd will be a memorable day for me anot....bcz so far until now u are the one that i stay with for 1 yr n half...the longest period i guess...u break my record!

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Our hamster died on this day...

Im so sad...dono how 2 described the feeling..when i reach ah be house it was alrdy weak in breathing...and eyes cant open alrdy...my tears start to fall....i cant talk...i cant do anythng...im helpless.....reli helpless....this is my 1st time feeling so helpless...when i went thru the process where a life being taken by god...i cant do anythng to stop it...i dowan him to go....it's still too small to go to the heaven....i miss him...i reli do....what i can do is keep calling him to wake up...dun stop breathing...my tears keep flowing...even now when i writing this blog my tears are running inside my eyes....i noe that im not a good mother yet...and i dono wat's inside ah be's mind...im lost...im all alone...im down...im sad....i asked bebe izit our hamster died on 2day mean that our love goin 2 end soon?I ask why must be 2day?He said it's just the coincidence...im so tired...i think thousand of vanilla sundae also wont make me feel happier ler 2day...2day just not a gud day...

Hope my lovely hamster R.I.P..

I don wan to be either the cage builder or the bird~

'The more u worry about someone, the more u will make dat person hate you'...The theory of building a cage for a bird so it dun fly away and been eaten by the eagle ~by Edward Aeruthayan~

I dowan 2 be either the cage builder or the bird...both of them have their own role to play...no one is exactly correct or wrong....one trying to protect the other while the other side prefer not to be protected....one trying to be themselve while the other 1 cannot just stand there and see them being hurt...wat 2 do huh?!

Y we have to live our life so complicated?I think all start by ourself..reli tired of having all these shits in our daily life...hmmp!reli dun undstnd...

oh no oh no!! start to think negative d...turn bec turn bec!faster make a big U-Turn !! yea!correct...haeded to positive direction..think positively...attract more positive thought...u see...now my weight bcm lighter also...lolx...

2day the Celebrity Fitness having their celebration party infront of our shop...im so attracted to their performance...they are so energetic! make me feel like wana dance with them oso...they have their aerobic dance,belly dance,pole dance,etc...i jz attract by the good looking guys i guess...lolx...

Jz found out gurney gt Hot & Roll...hehe...so hapy...i will have new thing 2 eat d...donit 2 go queensbay oso can eat d...it means dat i will broke faster!!omg! bt the cheese n ham 1 jz so nice...i cnt tahan ler...broke also wana eat...=) yummy...hmm...2day eat sandwich n iced lemon tea as breakfast...then having bento prepared by mum as lunch...no dinner...later dono ah be will bring me whr 4 supper...keke...miss him...hope 2 see him vy soon...1more hour from now...ah su din cal us yet...dono go whr ltr...

okies la...dowan write d...wan PANGKANG d!!! yippi!

L.O.V.E ? What is ♥ ??

Wonder what will happen if 3 aunt meet up 2 gtr...lolx

Im so hapy 2 hv my afternoon with another 2 aunt...keke...im aunt beth...the two aunt is aunt Q n aunt J.They are my coll fren n dono y v bcm fren n nw bcm vy gud fren..keke...im so lucky 2 meet u 2.

Im so upset after i gt 2 know that my frenz oso faced alotz of problems in their relationship with their partner.All i can do is just stunned thr when aunt Q tel me her sad story.Im reli so surprised by wat had happen in diz few months time.On the other hand,aunt J oso the same..i thought im the only one who have problem with my loved one bt now....aiz....I dono wat I can do for them...

I noe that aunt Q is not as tough as aunt J,i reli wish that she can walk out from the the sadness vy soon..n although aunt J look like vy tough bt im sure that she also kinda lonely and need some1 thr...i pula the most useless 1...i eat 'hui tou chao'....hmm...reason y?dun hv ans...dowan 2 think about it oso....

Thru our discussion,we reli find that guys alwiz think that galz dowan them is bcz of we fall in love with other guy but they never reflect on how they treat gal and alwiz think on their own side...y guy so hard to undstnd gal n gal did the same as well...is Ugly Truth tells the truth?wat reli can make a couple last longer?Is that so complicated in relationship of gal n boy?

Y 1 + 1 nt equal to 2? y must be > than 2 or < 2 sometimes?Why to start a relationship can be so easy but to maintain a relationship can be that hard?

Is guy noe that gal also will tired?Why they never knew what we need from them?Even how clever they are,top student or wateva...they did the same mistake....i guess that's bcz of 1 thing..bcz they are the same....they are guy....we are gal.....so we are alwiz different....one is from Mars one is from Venus rite?

complicated * complicated * complicated

Raining . Mood

This is my 1st blog here...

I didn't write blog for quite sometimes d.I will not update my blog everyday but once i got feeling to write den i will write.so maybe few days a week i will be here...lolx....lazy gal huh!

Wed is Wendy's off day...Wendy is my bebe's mum...and also my supervisor....we went to market that morning...cz we need some ingredients to cook...she will be da chef on that day...and i will be on Friday...

We buy alotz of thing and i bought some toilet assessories for my house...the small thing that hold toothpaste is so cute...i LOVE it....then after we bought evythng,we having breakfast 2gtr...both of us eat the same thing....curry mee....i suggest to ta pao for bebe...cz he's still sleeping...reli like a piggy....

when i see how his mum cooking,i reli swt!! so much thing 2do n reli so tired after done evythng...i told myself i don wan to do all these evyday....it's so damn tired...i rather read client's file den chopping da vegie evyday...once in awhile is ok la....nt evyday!!lolx...

Then Friday mean ystday....i gt mood to cook...so i cook 3 dishes n 1 soup....i jz realize that housewife is nt evy1 can be...and i definitely nt a gud one i think...bcz da potatoes n vegie i put nt enough salt n the telur bawang too thick....the only thing gud is da soup...uncle also say the soup nice...keke...i think ah be bluff me de,ah be say vy delicious,vy nice...n add rice....is just don wan me down...lolz...thx ah be...

Then we go to fetch William bec...he comes bec for holiday...after drop him we go cc...ah be teach me a new game on fb...tycoon...cz i dono how to start...quite interesting...i LOVE it...